Random Musings of the barely employed.

Sometimes when I am home during the week, I forget that it's a weekday and I think it's a Saturday. This morning, as planned, I woke up relatively early (for me) but fell back to sleep and woke up at 1 AM. Now I had promised myself that i will get to the gym every morning, and I had to fulfill this promise if I'm to continue to lose weight. (13 pounds on WW so far). So I quickly dressed in my gym clothes, made myself a small cheese omelet, and did some stretches (and a heat pack for my back) before I left at 11 AM. Although it's somewhat late, I like going at 11 because I can watch The View while I'm on the treadmill. If it's boring I can listen to my ipod and study my torah portion, which I'm learning for Marlee's bat mitzvah. I'm not in panic mode..yet.. but I still have a way to go.

anyway, coming back and reading my email and some new stories etc. (We finally found and killed Bin Laden!) it felt strangely Saturday-like, and then I realized that it wasn't. It's Tuesday. I have a Zamir rehearsal tonight. My Saturdays don't even feel like this anymore, since I usually go to services, either in Malden or with Alan in Waltham, which gets me home around 1 or 2, then I have to get ready to leave for work at 3.

I also feel kind of guilty, since people must wonder how I can manage to work part time and still pay my mortgage etc. Well, it's not worrisome right now, but I often wonder what I'm going to do over the next 10-15 years. I have enough money, if I'm careful, but it's not even 1 million (it was, once). If I lived with Alan, I'd save so much money, but we have a lot to talk about before that happens, so for now, here I am - working part time, studying torah, taking Hebrew, singing whenever I can, and trying to figure out how else to make money. Sunrise is just another corporate entity - my motto there is How High? I'm always afraid of making a mistake that will cost me my job. I think they like me enough to overlook the mistakes I've made (all minor, but to our exec director, extrememly important), so I'm safe for now...

it is great to get the exercise over with and come home and eat though. I was famished, but even at Stop and Shop, I still bought only WW and veggies. I have been snacking too much, and work is partly to blame, but I also bought on sale easter candy, most of which is still in the pantry, hopefully to stay for awhile.