Hearing that a 32 year old actress (Brittany Murphy) died "of natural causes" after going into cardiac arrest once again makes everyone realize how short life is. I have lost 2 friends -one my age, one not much older. I read the obits.
Which is why whenever I stress over my money - how much do I have today? Do I have enough? Will I have enough? What if I never find a job again? - I have to ask myself... what happens if I don't 1) Go to Israel, 2) take cantorial classes, 3) buy a few items I need that total under $1000? What if I don't live to be 90? or 80? or 70? So, my money will be left to some good causes. But why not enjoy it while I'm here?
It's not as if I'm going to take a cruise around the world, and that I'm having a shopping spree at Nordstrom's. In the past, while working and getting a decent salary, I didn't concern myself with the small stuff. I always looked for the best price - I bought Clark's boots at Bldg 19, found great stuff at Marshalls, TJMaxx, Big Lots, etc. but if I wanted a magazine or something else, I bought it.. Small stuff. And I've saved tons of money on things that I've seen at full price but was lucky enough to find for less. But now, I'm not working and I'm getting $209 a week unemployment. And I need things. I need a printer and a scanner. I need some new clothes. i want to take the trip to Israel that Rabbi Kudan is leading... and why not? I am spending money on classes at Hebrew College (ok, that stuff will cost more than $1000). Everyone says this is the time to do it. But it is still scary.
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